satisfied

Greetings people...finally..it was raining this morning..woke up late 2day at 12pm..

omg..skipped breakfast and church service..well,i was sleeping at 4am last nite.. =P

basically i stayed at home the whole noon..and went out 2 meet bel in starbuckz coz

both of us were craving for starbuckz coffee!! she and her frap and me with my mocha..

so so satisfying =) mary left at 11.30pm..gonna miss her..but she'll be back again on

18th dec.. looking forward to carolling =)


xoxo,
cin

dear friends =)

hey y'all...it's 2.40am sharp and i jz couldn't shut my eyes..guess it's coz of the teh ais

i drank in kemaman kopitiam..vyonne (should be bernice) messaged me last

night around 1am asking me whether i wanna watch twilight or not..that was when i

realized that she is back 2 ktn!! after breakfast with mummy and cousin sis, i called

my bestie to ask her out..thank god everyone is free..we went 2 relax for a drink..

eventhough it was just a brief gathering but i feel very happy to see my besties...

vyonne said 'all of us didnt change at all!!' and i couldn't agree more =).. well..i feel

it's good coz i love my friends for who they are...oh yea! went shopping with mummy

at Roxy..thanks to my cousin sis and her friend for the ticket..=) special offer for

member's family and friends..50% off!! i managed to buy a black casual dress and a

top =) dam worth it..now am thinking of what to get for my cousin sis for x'mas..as for

my friends..i promised them choc chips cookies..i hope i'll have time to make some..

(kenalah tengok mood jugak kan? =P )


xoxo,
cin

vampire mania~~

hey guys...just watched twilight saga the new moon last nite with my bestie..i wouldnt

say that it's the best movie for 2009 but i couldnt help but drooling over edward cullen.

ohh!! how can a guy be so perfect..romantic..protective and loyal...i'm so gonna find my

own edward cullen!! well..as for jacob..his bod is super HOT...omg..those abs... =D oh

yea...i was sleeping so soundly and woke up abruptly...seconds later,i received an sms

from chie telling me that the result is out..i quickly switced on my laptop and went

online..immediately i went 2 the esmp account and saw my result...OMG!! a C!! i

was like SHIT!! and it's not even animal biodiv..spoilt my whole mood and most

importantly my cgpa..all my hardwork...gonna work extra harder next sem.. hopefully

i'll b able to reach my target..overall, a good day..well at least i get 2 hang out wif my

bestie.. =)


xoxo,
cin~

2 weeks gone

hey people,

it's been like 2 weeks since my sem break started and i'm putting on weight alread!!

dam!! like swee chie said 'we couldnt control ourselves..we eat when we're bored'..

so true and i couldnt agree more..i wish i can have my old metabolism back..those days

i can even eat a whole set of McD without putting on weight..ishz!! i'm starting 2

realized that as i grow older,my body changes..i used 2 b really skinny..flat!! really flat

and now..i'm more curvier..and there's nothing tat i can do but 2 learn 2 love my new

curve..or else i'm goin 2 b bulimic.. there's no way i'll be aneroxic coz i love food...

oh well..i'm currently catching up on grey's anatomy and 90210..oh! how much i love

dramas!! am trying 2 finish reading ash's novel...=)


xoxo,
Cin

much of appreciation

thank u so much to those who support me....thanks bel for texting me rite after u've

read my blog..sorry that my posts made u cry..and thanks jaa ming & bernice for

asking...thanks mary for always be by my side supporting me and listening to my

problems..thanks for being so understanding!! thanks ash and ker shin for helping

me survive thru uni life..without u guys by my side...i knew uni life will sux...and

thanks 2 each and every1 who supported me..sry if i didnt mention ur names..u guys

rockz..love ya'll


xoxo,
plain old Cindy

The Saddest Memont of My Life (Part 2)

the appointment was 1 week later...so i had to go back to Kuantan to get ready for my coll intake..

after 1 week,i drove down to Kl with dad to see my mum..my mum was staying with my uncle

at that time...i remembered my best fren smsed me telling me that i was offered to study in UPM..

i was torn between 2 choices at that time..should i go for law or biology?? thinking that my family

might need money for my mum's operation i choosed biology which is much cheaper...my best

friend and relatives supported my decision but not my dad and bf...i was so sad...during the day

of mum's appointment with the dr, me & my cousin sis accompanied her to the hosp..mum

needed wheel chair coz she can barely walk...she kept vomiting and was so weak..the dr looked

at her n said 'i think u have liver cancer'...oh gosh...the news slapped me straight on the face...i

held back my tears,trying to look and be strong for my mum...mum was asked to be admitted.. i

had to go back to kuantan to pack my stuff for the orientation week in UPM...i didnt went for

the entire orientation coz had to rush to the hosp to be by mum's side..at that time, the dr

decided to operate her liver..they said it was a 50/50...they were not sure whether they can

remove the tumours or not...oh yea...before that,i mentioned that i was rushing to pack my

stuff for uni...i asked my bf to fetch me to the mall to do my last min shopping for some

groceries..he said 'i will accompany u only if u come n pick me up'..i was so frustrated and sad.. i

cried non-stop..i shouted back on the phone and asked him to come n pick me up immediately..

finally,he came...with angry expression plastering on his face..i went into the car and he drove

me to take my pic (passport size photos) ..look at my matric card's pic..i was crying at that time

but i forced myself to smile to the camera...then we took off to the mall..thruout the journey, i

was crying so teruk til i feel like my eyes r gonna come out...i never cried so badly in my entire

life..i was worry bout my mum not being able to make it or survive the operation...i was worry

that she will just go like tat leaving me all alone in this world...huh! that fella (my bf) didnt even

bother to cheer me up...when we reached,he parked his car and kept quiet..i was sobbing so

hard..he even scolded me 'if u wanna cry then go back..dun go 2 the mall'..i scolded him 'did u

know that i'm worry bout my mum...she mite leave me forever just like tat..u dun even bother

to cheer me up..she's really sick and i'm really worry'..and guessed wat he answered back. he

said 'i also got my own problem k..i didnt even get a place in uni u kno'.. dam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huh!

i just couldnt describe my feeling at that time..i was angry+sad+worry+irritated...

mum survived the operation..they took out the 13kg big tumour..she was given 12 bags of blood

during the opearation..i went and see mum in the ICU ward...she was so weak..i came out from

the ward crying in the arm of my aunt...she told me 'everything is ok now..dont worry'..i asked

my bf to come n visit my mum..he said 'i'll come n visit her if u accompany me to ATC coll 2 seek

counselling'...he didnt even called me once when i was in uni during orientation week.. the week

after mum's operation, i asked for break up.. surprisingly he didnt even kno why i wanna break

up wif him...he asked for 2nd chance 2 months later but i rejected..i would not allow any1 to

break my heart anymore...on and off,mum needs to do her chemo...i had to accompany her

everynite during 1st and 2nd sem. i remembered staying up late the day b4 the kenegaraan

exam to study and rushed to the hosp immediately after the test the next day...walking thru

this journey is not easy..that is why i pray that none of my frens have to go thru this bitter

experiences..i once told ASH that let me be the one to suffer..i just dont wan any of my fren 2 suffer...

my frens and relatives say i'm strong but my strength comes from God and my frens' support..

the strongest person in the entire journey is my mum..it's not easy carrying 13kg of tumour

inside ur liver and not easy goin thru all the side effects...this whole experience shows me who

r my true frens and who r important in my life...

The saddest moment in my life

hi frenz, i knew some of y'all have heard this story from me but this memory keeps circulating in

my brain...i still remember the day i went to ATC to register for the law course..during that

period,mum was already feeling not well but she didnt show it..or it's just us not wanting to accept

the fact that mum is sick..coz she's always the strongest person in the family...when we were

walking down the pavement along the Petaling Street, she suddenly felled..then,she started to feel

drowsy and nausea..when we reached my uncle's house in Puchong, she started to vomit..it was

so serious that she vommited gaster juice..she took some gastric medicine but it didnt work..

upon returning from KL, she was already very very sick..i can remember her sleeping all day

long and wouldnt wanna wake up from her bed...she was so weak that she couldnt even walk..

but she still didnt wanna see the doctor...i rememberd the part where she asked me to

accompany her to work coz she couldnt even sit on the chair (her stomach was growing during

that time)..so i decided to accompany her to work remembering i didnt even sleep well the nite

b4..after 2 hours, she complained that she couldnt stand no more so she asked me to fetch her

home..i remembered her vomiting in the car...it was aweful..she called my dad to fetch her to

the specialist hospital of coz with me accompanying her...the stupid surgeon who used to follow

up on her condition was shocked when he saw my mum..her stomach was growing and he

immediately asked my mum to admit into the ward..he even referred us to the Damansara

Specialist Hosp..dad didnt kno where's the location so the dr suggested that my mum to be

sent by the ambulance...i was feeling so scared at that time...of coz, i had to accompany her in

the ambulance...that nite i was busy packing my stuff and mum's to bring to the hosp..i had to

wake up at 4 something the next morning..my dad sent me to the hosp...we waited and by 6 am,

the ambulance came and picked us up..the 3 hours journey from Ktn to Kl was long and i was

feeling so worried and scared...i remembered my aunt came to the hosp to accompany me & my

mum..the liver surgeon decided to operate and take out the cysts for my mum...we were so

happy thinking that finally this dr can do something for her...she was so pale...her rosy

complexion was replaced with pale yellowish skin..her finger tips were yellowish...(this shows

that she lost alot of blood)...her blood was all accumulated in her liver..that is why her stomach

was growing so big...she couldnt even eat...couldnt even sleep properly...couldnt even walk...

the next day, the surgeon came and told us that my mum's cysts were diff from the normal cysts

he said that he couldnt operate them..all of us were devestated..he told us that my mum might

need liver transpalant...he gave us 2 options..either to register my mum in the awaiting list for

new liver transplant or go to singapore to do the liver transplant...my cousin found out that the

whole cost for the liver transplant is nearly RM1 million..how can we afford? i remembered

crying my heart out..calling my best fren at that time...crying and crying and crying over the

phone..and then called my bf at that time...telling him the news..(no help at all from him)...

luckily the surgeon referred my mum to another hosp with all the liver specialists which is Hosp

Selayang